Lost Recap and Analysis – LAX parts 1 and 2
by Dean Crawford
Lost is back, Baby!!  As I’ve previously posted (http://thekinkyafro.tumblr.com/#365037822 ), I was very excited for Lost’s return.  Now it’s back, and we have 18 episodes to go on what has been one of the biggest TV shows of the last 10 years.  I’m not saying it is the best, but it has definitely been one of the biggest.  You either love it or hate.  And no matter what you say, it has had a such an influence on most TV watchers.  Right, i’m going to quickly recap the first two episodes, give a few thoughts, share a few theories that are going around and hopefully we can add our own thoughts and have a bit of online discussion about it and throughout the season each week.I liked the fact that right away we were shown the affect of the bomb going off.  We were right back where we started and shown an alternate reality.  One in which Oceanic flight 815 didn’t crash.  We have had flash-backs, flash-forwards, now have the “flash-sideways”.  I personally like this idea.  I have always wondered what the losties lives would have been like if they crash hadn’t of happened, now we are set to find out.  Right at the start of the episode we are introduced to all our favourite characters once again.  (As a side note, it appears as if the Lost producers theory could be steeped in reality and I think partially based on string theory.  Have a butchers at this - http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/horizon/2001/paralleluni.shtml )Jack’s back - but this time with longer hair than he had 3 years ago.  Has Jack changed so much in this alternate reality, that he no longer shaves his head?  Or is it that he has to keep it long for continuity in the on-island story line?  Desmond - It was nice seeing him so soon, but sadly i feel that will be the last we see of him.  In this time line he is married.  To Penny?  Quite possibly.  If you feel showing us the island submerged in water is confirmation that the bomb went off in this time-line, then there would have been no Widmore to screw with desmonds life.  No Widmore, no boat race.  It was interesting to see how Desmond’s appearance sparked a sense of deja vu in Jack.  It’s like he remembers something from his past, or his alternate reality.  Will this happen for all the characters?  As a side note, the book he was reading was “Haroun and the Sea of Stories” by Salman Rushdie which, accordiang to Wikipedia, is about a city so old that it’s name has been forgotten.  Sound familiar?  There’s also “an electromagnetic device intended to destroy the ocean” which again fits it with what has just happened in the finale of Season 5.Rose – Shorter hair but it’s the same wise old Rose.  Did anyone else get the feeling that she has an idea about what’s going on?  She seemed a little bit defensive when Jack asked if she had seen Desmond.   Maybe she knows how special Desmond has been in the past.  Or maybe Desmond was never really there but she didn’t want to engage in his craziness.  She also looked very happy.  Is her cancer cured, or did it never happen?Locke is the same old Locke unfortunately – Lying about what a great hunter-gatherer he is when we know that the people on the walkabout wouldn’t let him on the plane.  Or did they?  Ooooooohhhhh???Hurley -  In this alternate reality, Hurley is now the luckiest man alive and loves the money he has won.  I’m guessing it’s because the island in this timeline has been destroyed so he never got a chance to use the numbers from the island to play on the lottery.Kate – Still running.  It seems as if she is still the same and is on the exact same path as before.  Kate bores me.  Zzzz.  Next!Sawyer – Sawyer seems less angry.  Did he kill the real Sawyer in Australia.  I’m guessing he wouldn’t have met Jacob in this time-line, therefore didn’t get the pen and the motivation to keep writing his letter.  He seems a bit too nice if you ask me and I think he was eyeing up Hurley for a con.Jin and Sun -  Good news for Sun!  The bomb didn’t go off so now she can get  back with the old misogynistic Jin back who berates her in public for showing the slightest amount of flesh.  Hooray!  Were they still on the same timeline?  Was Sun still going to leave Jin.  No English!  No English?  Does this mean she never cheated on Jin?  The Cameos – It was good seeing Charlie back again, still in seemingly pissed off rock star mode as he tells Jack “I was supposed to die”.   Yeah, choking on a bag of heroin without even getting the full benefits of shooting some up…great way to go!  Boone was back, but without his sister which was a shame.  But then again, I doubt she would have been able to wear her bikini on the plane so who cares!  Charlie was on the same journey, but not Boone.  Hmm, interesting.   Claire came back in the end but we didn’t see if she was pregnant or not.  Artz was back for a cameo as was “Froghurt”. But you know who was missing?  Michael and Walt.  Not to mention Ecko, Anna-Lucia, the big gaping plot hole that is Libby.  She was in a mental home with hurley and gave Desmond his boat for Christ sake!  Is there not going to be even the slightest mention of that again?  Maybe in this timeline those guys never get on the plane.  Or maybe the producers couldn’t afford one too many cameos.Another thing I’m liking about the sideways plot line, is that it is in keeping with the “Whatever happened, happened” theory.  Things are destined to repeat themselves no matter what.  There have been so many coincidences during the previous 5 seasons of lost.  It looks like things are on a loop, and no matter what timeline or path the characters take, it is their destiny to meet each other.  In this new, alternate timeline, we still have Jack and Desmond coming together.  Boone and Locke still form a bond and he even says “if this thing crashes, I’m sticking with you”.   The FBI agent still gets his head bashed in.  Claire and Kate have still come together though we don’t yet know if this will involve Aaron.  Though some people are special and can remember certain things, hence the déjà vu, while others just follow there designed scripts.  Is this what the producers had intended the whole time?   Or have they just been reading the imdb Lost forums and decided to pick whatever theory they though fit the best and decided to take the show in that direction for the final season?Righto, briefly onto the on-island stuff.Hurley – sees Jacob and he tells them where to go.Juliet – dies AGAIN!  Though she does have a Charlotte moment where she appears to be traveling through time as she is about to die.  “We should get coffee…”.  One thing I’m wondering here is that if she did set the bomb off and destroy the hatch, just like Desmond did at the end of Season 2, why has she been killed and Desmond wasn’t?  Will she back in the future? Miles – Still talking to the dead which I like to see.  Tells Sawyer Juliet said “It worked!”.  So is she a ghost floating around now?We then come across another set of OTHERS.   Yep, there are more others out there.  These guys have no time for small talk and would have killed our group unless Hurley mentioned Jacob.   This set of others seem far removed from the Dharma others that lived in the barracks.  Do they even know of each other?  What have they been doing this whole time?  The guy with glasses looked a little like John Lennon, right?  This group seem like an original set of others, but then Cindy the flight attendant is there so I am not too sure about that.  Hurley’s guitar case – we find out it was carrying an ankh, which is the symbol of eternal life.  Inside is a note which pretty much says save Sayid.Well, they didn’t do too good a job of that, as they actually drown him instead.  It seemed weird, but I didn’t think jack did a very good job of trying to bring Sayid back to life.  I remember in Season one he spent about 10 minutes trying to bring Charlie back, and he had been dead much longer than Sayid.So, is Sayid really dead?  Is he still the same Sayid?  Is he Jacob?  Was the hourglass used because that was the length of time someone has to be purged before they can be reborn?  Is he Jacob?  If he isn’t Jacob, what about these risks?  Will he turn evil like Ben?  I’m looking forward to finding out.And last but not least, the scene with “Locke”.  It was awesome seeing what most people had been theorizing, that this Locke/Man in black was in fact the smoke monster.  He also tells us his motives.  He simply wants to go home.  Where is his home?  We learned last year that the smoke monster lives in the temple and that it is a security system.  This is puzzling, because once the others in the temple find out the man in black is back (I’m sure there is a song in there somewhere…), they go crazy and start laying down the black ash we saw at the cabin to protect themselves.  Why has it now changed?  I’m guessing that without a human form, he is controllable, like we saw with Ben in season 4.   Maybe the temple is it’s home, and he wants it back.Why couldn’t the smoke monster have done this before though?  And was the man in black living in the cabin the whole time?  If so, how did he become trapped with Ash in the cabin?  When did he break out as he’s been flying around judging people for ages now.  Who broke the ash circle?  And if Ben and John have been looking for the cabin this whole time, does that mean it was the man in black, and not Jacob in there every time we have visited it?More and more questions raised and not a lot of time left to answer them in.  Some other thoughts/Questions•    Have all the flashbacks/forwards thus far been alternate realities also?•    Is it 2004?•    Is Jack’s cut on his neck real?•    How different from their original timeline is this flash sideways timeline for each character?•    Will we see Desmond, Rose, Bernard, Charlie and Boone again?•    Why do we still have the 2004-on island storyline?  I like seeing the what might have happened storyline, but why are we still on the island if Juliet’s effort to blow up the bomb worked?So, this season we have two realities existing side by side, but which one will prevail.  I really can’t wait to see how they wrap everything up.  Only 16 more episodes to go!So, what do you all think?  Any thoughts, discussions, ideas, suggestions?  Agree with anything I’ve said?  Disagree?  Think I’m a full of sh…?Peace.

Lost Recap and Analysis – LAX parts 1 and 2

by Dean Crawford

Lost is back, Baby!!  As I’ve previously posted (http://thekinkyafro.tumblr.com/#365037822 ), I was very excited for Lost’s return.  Now it’s back, and we have 18 episodes to go on what has been one of the biggest TV shows of the last 10 years.  I’m not saying it is the best, but it has definitely been one of the biggest.  You either love it or hate.  And no matter what you say, it has had a such an influence on most TV watchers. 

Right, i’m going to quickly recap the first two episodes, give a few thoughts, share a few theories that are going around and hopefully we can add our own thoughts and have a bit of online discussion about it and throughout the season each week.

I liked the fact that right away we were shown the affect of the bomb going off.  We were right back where we started and shown an alternate reality.  One in which Oceanic flight 815 didn’t crash.  We have had flash-backs, flash-forwards, now have the “flash-sideways”.  I personally like this idea.  I have always wondered what the losties lives would have been like if they crash hadn’t of happened, now we are set to find out.  Right at the start of the episode we are introduced to all our favourite characters once again.  (As a side note, it appears as if the Lost producers theory could be steeped in reality and I think partially based on string theory.  Have a butchers at this - http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/horizon/2001/paralleluni.shtml )

Jack’s back - but this time with longer hair than he had 3 years ago.  Has Jack changed so much in this alternate reality, that he no longer shaves his head?  Or is it that he has to keep it long for continuity in the on-island story line? 

Desmond - It was nice seeing him so soon, but sadly i feel that will be the last we see of him.  In this time line he is married.  To Penny?  Quite possibly.  If you feel showing us the island submerged in water is confirmation that the bomb went off in this time-line, then there would have been no Widmore to screw with desmonds life.  No Widmore, no boat race.  It was interesting to see how Desmond’s appearance sparked a sense of deja vu in Jack.  It’s like he remembers something from his past, or his alternate reality.  Will this happen for all the characters?  As a side note, the book he was reading was “Haroun and the Sea of Stories” by Salman Rushdie which, accordiang to Wikipedia, is about a city so old that it’s name has been forgotten.  Sound familiar?  There’s also “an electromagnetic device intended to destroy the ocean” which again fits it with what has just happened in the finale of Season 5.

Rose – Shorter hair but it’s the same wise old Rose.  Did anyone else get the feeling that she has an idea about what’s going on?  She seemed a little bit defensive when Jack asked if she had seen Desmond.   Maybe she knows how special Desmond has been in the past.  Or maybe Desmond was never really there but she didn’t want to engage in his craziness.  She also looked very happy.  Is her cancer cured, or did it never happen?

Locke is the same old Locke unfortunately – Lying about what a great hunter-gatherer he is when we know that the people on the walkabout wouldn’t let him on the plane.  Or did they?  Ooooooohhhhh???

Hurley -  In this alternate reality, Hurley is now the luckiest man alive and loves the money he has won.  I’m guessing it’s because the island in this timeline has been destroyed so he never got a chance to use the numbers from the island to play on the lottery.

Kate – Still running.  It seems as if she is still the same and is on the exact same path as before.  Kate bores me.  Zzzz.  Next!

Sawyer – Sawyer seems less angry.  Did he kill the real Sawyer in Australia.  I’m guessing he wouldn’t have met Jacob in this time-line, therefore didn’t get the pen and the motivation to keep writing his letter.  He seems a bit too nice if you ask me and I think he was eyeing up Hurley for a con.

Jin and Sun -  Good news for Sun!  The bomb didn’t go off so now she can get  back with the old misogynistic Jin back who berates her in public for showing the slightest amount of flesh.  Hooray!  Were they still on the same timeline?  Was Sun still going to leave Jin.  No English!  No English?  Does this mean she never cheated on Jin? 

The Cameos – It was good seeing Charlie back again, still in seemingly pissed off rock star mode as he tells Jack “I was supposed to die”.   Yeah, choking on a bag of heroin without even getting the full benefits of shooting some up…great way to go!  Boone was back, but without his sister which was a shame.  But then again, I doubt she would have been able to wear her bikini on the plane so who cares!  Charlie was on the same journey, but not Boone.  Hmm, interesting.   Claire came back in the end but we didn’t see if she was pregnant or not.  Artz was back for a cameo as was “Froghurt”.

But you know who was missing?  Michael and Walt.  Not to mention Ecko, Anna-Lucia, the big gaping plot hole that is Libby.  She was in a mental home with hurley and gave Desmond his boat for Christ sake!  Is there not going to be even the slightest mention of that again?  Maybe in this timeline those guys never get on the plane.  Or maybe the producers couldn’t afford one too many cameos.

Another thing I’m liking about the sideways plot line, is that it is in keeping with the “Whatever happened, happened” theory.  Things are destined to repeat themselves no matter what.  There have been so many coincidences during the previous 5 seasons of lost.  It looks like things are on a loop, and no matter what timeline or path the characters take, it is their destiny to meet each other.  In this new, alternate timeline, we still have Jack and Desmond coming together.  Boone and Locke still form a bond and he even says “if this thing crashes, I’m sticking with you”.   The FBI agent still gets his head bashed in.  Claire and Kate have still come together though we don’t yet know if this will involve Aaron.  Though some people are special and can remember certain things, hence the déjà vu, while others just follow there designed scripts.  Is this what the producers had intended the whole time?   Or have they just been reading the imdb Lost forums and decided to pick whatever theory they though fit the best and decided to take the show in that direction for the final season?

Righto, briefly onto the on-island stuff.

Hurley – sees Jacob and he tells them where to go.

Juliet – dies AGAIN!  Though she does have a Charlotte moment where she appears to be traveling through time as she is about to die.  “We should get coffee…”.  One thing I’m wondering here is that if she did set the bomb off and destroy the hatch, just like Desmond did at the end of Season 2, why has she been killed and Desmond wasn’t?  Will she back in the future?

Miles – Still talking to the dead which I like to see.  Tells Sawyer Juliet said “It worked!”.  So is she a ghost floating around now?

We then come across another set of OTHERS.   Yep, there are more others out there.  These guys have no time for small talk and would have killed our group unless Hurley mentioned Jacob.   This set of others seem far removed from the Dharma others that lived in the barracks.  Do they even know of each other?  What have they been doing this whole time?  The guy with glasses looked a little like John Lennon, right?  This group seem like an original set of others, but then Cindy the flight attendant is there so I am not too sure about that. 

Hurley’s guitar case – we find out it was carrying an ankh, which is the symbol of eternal life.  Inside is a note which pretty much says save Sayid.

Well, they didn’t do too good a job of that, as they actually drown him instead.  It seemed weird, but I didn’t think jack did a very good job of trying to bring Sayid back to life.  I remember in Season one he spent about 10 minutes trying to bring Charlie back, and he had been dead much longer than Sayid.

So, is Sayid really dead?  Is he still the same Sayid?  Is he Jacob?  Was the hourglass used because that was the length of time someone has to be purged before they can be reborn?  Is he Jacob?  If he isn’t Jacob, what about these risks?  Will he turn evil like Ben?  I’m looking forward to finding out.

And last but not least, the scene with “Locke”.  It was awesome seeing what most people had been theorizing, that this Locke/Man in black was in fact the smoke monster.  He also tells us his motives.  He simply wants to go home.  Where is his home?  We learned last year that the smoke monster lives in the temple and that it is a security system.  This is puzzling, because once the others in the temple find out the man in black is back (I’m sure there is a song in there somewhere…), they go crazy and start laying down the black ash we saw at the cabin to protect themselves.  Why has it now changed?  I’m guessing that without a human form, he is controllable, like we saw with Ben in season 4.   Maybe the temple is it’s home, and he wants it back.

Why couldn’t the smoke monster have done this before though?  And was the man in black living in the cabin the whole time?  If so, how did he become trapped with Ash in the cabin?  When did he break out as he’s been flying around judging people for ages now.  Who broke the ash circle?  And if Ben and John have been looking for the cabin this whole time, does that mean it was the man in black, and not Jacob in there every time we have visited it?

More and more questions raised and not a lot of time left to answer them in.  Some other thoughts/Questions

•    Have all the flashbacks/forwards thus far been alternate realities also?
•    Is it 2004?
•    Is Jack’s cut on his neck real?
•    How different from their original timeline is this flash sideways timeline for each character?
•    Will we see Desmond, Rose, Bernard, Charlie and Boone again?
•    Why do we still have the 2004-on island storyline?  I like seeing the what might have happened storyline, but why are we still on the island if Juliet’s effort to blow up the bomb worked?

So, this season we have two realities existing side by side, but which one will prevail.  I really can’t wait to see how they wrap everything up.  Only 16 more episodes to go!

So, what do you all think?  Any thoughts, discussions, ideas, suggestions?  Agree with anything I’ve said?  Disagree?  Think I’m a full of sh…?

Peace.

Have I been lost without Lost? A love letter…
by Dean Crawford

 
 
 
Oh Lost. Lost, Lost, Lost.  You’ve been gone a long time old girl and I have missed you so much.  10 months and counting, in fact.  At first I was afraid, I was petrified.  Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side.  I kept thinking to myself, “have I been lost without you?”.  For five years we had been seeing each other on and off.  Our relationship was eventful and intense.  Even though we would spend a great deal of time together, you were always a complete mystery to me.  Just when I thought I had you figured all out, you would flip our relationship on it’s head and keep me guessing.
 
Every year, like clockwork, you would leave me.  But I didn’t mind as each time I knew you would come back.  You always came back.   But this last time you ended with me rather abruptly, and some would say rather unfairly.  You just left me in a confused haze with so many unanswered questions. You would come to see me at all crazy times and wasn’t quite sure who you were supposed to be.  You would constantly try to reinvent yourself and change your style.  Were you this retro 70s chick, or were you from the here and now?  You just couldn’t make up your mind so you left to decide once and for all who you really were.  But sadly, this left me alone.  I was all by myself and all I could do was think about our relationship. About specific incidents and how early on you would tell me one thing, but would actually mean something else.  I constantly worried that on certain occasions you made me promises and laid the foundations and rules of our relationship, only for years later to pretend that never happened or you really meant something else.  I wondered why I ever even started with you in the first place when you were clearly never going to live up to the expectations that I had for you.  I now think you were making everything up as you went along just to keep me interested.  You never really had any goals, nor had any ideas our relationship would lead us.
 
This last break up was the worst.  I truly hated the way we finished.  I thought we were heading in the same direction, but then you revealed a piece of your past to me that was going to affect our future and I didn’t like it.  I didn’t like it one bit.  But as ever, you presumed that I would just come running back.  But a lot has changed since you’ve been gone my love.  I have moved on.  My Auntie, B.B.C, introduced me to somebody new, and her name was The Wire.  I had heard a lot about her, and she seemed too good to be true.  I mean, sure, I’d had a lot of quality partners in the past. The Sopranos were a tough bunch.  At times things could get a little X-Rated and violent, but we always had a good time.  It was my first relationship where I really felt like an adult. Then came 24, but she just ended up being a string of one-night stands.  The intensity was too much too handle at times, but when we were together it was always fun.   I’m not even sure what she is up to now anyway.  I know she moved from L.A, to Washington.  Last I heard she was in New York.  Then there was Smallville who made me feel like a teenager again.  But in the end, I found myself growing up and she wasn’t growing up with me so I had to leave.  They were all great in their own special ways, so I didn’t see the point in emotionally investing myself in someone new so soon after my break up with you, Lost. 
I spent a long time thinking about it, and eventually I decided to take Auntie’s advice to believe all the hype, bite the bullet and start another relationship.  Even if it didn’t work out, I knew The Wire was only in England for an intensive short stay and would be leaving by the end of the autumn.  When we went out on our first few dates I couldn’t stop thinking about you, Lost.  Even though we were no longer together, I still felt like I was cheating on you.  If the truth be told, I think I was only seeing The Wire to get over you. I didn’t want to get too involved so I was extremely cautious at the start, wary not to be taken for a fool.  But with The Wire, something felt different.
 
At first, I didn’t see what all the fuss was about.  I felt like I had made a mistake and wasted my time getting involved with someone else so soon.  Sure, she was intelligent, witty, funny and the like.  But it just felt like something was missing.  However, as the seasons passed something began to change.  The Wire was intelligent and started treating me like an adult. The Wire didn’t keep repeating itself in an effort to keep my attention.  There were no flashy gimmicks, no tricks.  Nothing was drawn out.  Everything felt fresh and vibrant. The Wire would just be herself and if I liked it, great.  If not, tough. We would see each other three or four times a week but The Wire really took it’s time with me.  It really got to know me and I know her.   No longer was I being brought to the brink on every date, only to be teased into an anti climax and told to wait until the next date.  She wouldn’t leave me hanging over the proverbial cliff.  She respected me as a person, and respected my intelligence and this made me want to see her even more. The Wire was incredibly complex and complicated, and once I had figured her out, it was the best thing that had ever happened to me.  We would have some real in depth conversations and I really had to pay attention to her. There was no filler on our dates.  Everything she said was for a reason.  So we took things slowly at first and gradually we picked up the pace until we really got in our groove and eventually we reached a wholly satisfying, full on climax.  Was the hype justified?  You bet it was.  I had never been with anyone like The Wire before. And just like that, after 5 months, The Wire was gone.  It cut like a knife, but she was out of my life.  However, I had the time of my life, and I owed it all to The Wire. Lost, you were the last thing on my mind.  I felt free.  Grown up.  Mature. I could finally think about making a new start.
 
But now you’re back from outer space.  I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face.  I should have changed that stupid lock! I should have made you leave your key if I had known for just one second you would be back to bother me.  I’ve decided that I’m not going to get involved with you anymore.  I’ve grown up and don’t need a tease like you in my life.  Go on.  GO!  Get out of here!
 
Ok, Wait.  Wait, wait, wait.  Don’t go!  Don’t walk out that door.  I know I’m crazy for thinking this, but maybe, just maybe this time will be different.  Maybe you were just making it seem like you were B.S’ing your way through our relationship.   Maybe you do really have an answer for all those little mysteries you introduced me too.  Maybe this time you will quit playing games with my heart.  Maybe it was my fault for reading into things you said a little too much.  Maybe, just when I thought our chance had past you’d gone and save the best for last.  Yes, that’s it!  Let’s let nature decide and try for one more season.  Come on Baby, one more time!  Maybe then you will give me all the answers I need to fully understand you and it will be true love after all. 
 
How about we meet up on Tuesday?  Say 9pm?  Or if you’d prefer, we could do England?  Next Sunday at the same time?  Yes?  Great!  Oh, Lost.  How I’ve missed you so.  You’re just too good to be true.  I can’t take my eyes off of you.  Oh, I’m just so excited and I just can’t hide it. I know this may sound like a bit of a cliché, but I really have been lost without you. 
 
Let’s get it on…

Have I been lost without Lost? A love letter…

by Dean Crawford


Oh Lost. Lost, Lost, Lost.  You’ve been gone a long time old girl and I have missed you so much.  10 months and counting, in fact.  At first I was afraid, I was petrified.  Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side.  I kept thinking to myself, “have I been lost without you?”.  For five years we had been seeing each other on and off.  Our relationship was eventful and intense.  Even though we would spend a great deal of time together, you were always a complete mystery to me.  Just when I thought I had you figured all out, you would flip our relationship on it’s head and keep me guessing.

Every year, like clockwork, you would leave me.  But I didn’t mind as each time I knew you would come back.  You always came back.   But this last time you ended with me rather abruptly, and some would say rather unfairly.  You just left me in a confused haze with so many unanswered questions. You would come to see me at all crazy times and wasn’t quite sure who you were supposed to be.  You would constantly try to reinvent yourself and change your style.  Were you this retro 70s chick, or were you from the here and now?  You just couldn’t make up your mind so you left to decide once and for all who you really were.  But sadly, this left me alone.  I was all by myself and all I could do was think about our relationship. About specific incidents and how early on you would tell me one thing, but would actually mean something else.  I constantly worried that on certain occasions you made me promises and laid the foundations and rules of our relationship, only for years later to pretend that never happened or you really meant something else.  I wondered why I ever even started with you in the first place when you were clearly never going to live up to the expectations that I had for you.  I now think you were making everything up as you went along just to keep me interested.  You never really had any goals, nor had any ideas our relationship would lead us.

This last break up was the worst.  I truly hated the way we finished.  I thought we were heading in the same direction, but then you revealed a piece of your past to me that was going to affect our future and I didn’t like it.  I didn’t like it one bit.  But as ever, you presumed that I would just come running back.  But a lot has changed since you’ve been gone my love.  I have moved on.  My Auntie, B.B.C, introduced me to somebody new, and her name was The Wire.  I had heard a lot about her, and she seemed too good to be true.  I mean, sure, I’d had a lot of quality partners in the past. The Sopranos were a tough bunch.  At times things could get a little X-Rated and violent, but we always had a good time.  It was my first relationship where I really felt like an adult. Then came 24, but she just ended up being a string of one-night stands.  The intensity was too much too handle at times, but when we were together it was always fun.   I’m not even sure what she is up to now anyway.  I know she moved from L.A, to Washington.  Last I heard she was in New York.  Then there was Smallville who made me feel like a teenager again.  But in the end, I found myself growing up and she wasn’t growing up with me so I had to leave.  They were all great in their own special ways, so I didn’t see the point in emotionally investing myself in someone new so soon after my break up with you, Lost.

I spent a long time thinking about it, and eventually I decided to take Auntie’s advice to believe all the hype, bite the bullet and start another relationship.  Even if it didn’t work out, I knew The Wire was only in England for an intensive short stay and would be leaving by the end of the autumn.  When we went out on our first few dates I couldn’t stop thinking about you, Lost.  Even though we were no longer together, I still felt like I was cheating on you.  If the truth be told, I think I was only seeing The Wire to get over you. I didn’t want to get too involved so I was extremely cautious at the start, wary not to be taken for a fool.  But with The Wire, something felt different.

At first, I didn’t see what all the fuss was about.  I felt like I had made a mistake and wasted my time getting involved with someone else so soon.  Sure, she was intelligent, witty, funny and the like.  But it just felt like something was missing.  However, as the seasons passed something began to change.  The Wire was intelligent and started treating me like an adult. The Wire didn’t keep repeating itself in an effort to keep my attention.  There were no flashy gimmicks, no tricks.  Nothing was drawn out.  Everything felt fresh and vibrant. The Wire would just be herself and if I liked it, great.  If not, tough. We would see each other three or four times a week but The Wire really took it’s time with me.  It really got to know me and I know her.   No longer was I being brought to the brink on every date, only to be teased into an anti climax and told to wait until the next date.  She wouldn’t leave me hanging over the proverbial cliff.  She respected me as a person, and respected my intelligence and this made me want to see her even more. The Wire was incredibly complex and complicated, and once I had figured her out, it was the best thing that had ever happened to me.  We would have some real in depth conversations and I really had to pay attention to her. There was no filler on our dates.  Everything she said was for a reason.  So we took things slowly at first and gradually we picked up the pace until we really got in our groove and eventually we reached a wholly satisfying, full on climax.  Was the hype justified?  You bet it was.  I had never been with anyone like The Wire before. And just like that, after 5 months, The Wire was gone.  It cut like a knife, but she was out of my life.  However, I had the time of my life, and I owed it all to The Wire. Lost, you were the last thing on my mind.  I felt free.  Grown up.  Mature. I could finally think about making a new start.

But now you’re back from outer space.  I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face.  I should have changed that stupid lock! I should have made you leave your key if I had known for just one second you would be back to bother me.  I’ve decided that I’m not going to get involved with you anymore.  I’ve grown up and don’t need a tease like you in my life.  Go on.  GO!  Get out of here!

Ok, Wait.  Wait, wait, wait.  Don’t go!  Don’t walk out that door.  I know I’m crazy for thinking this, but maybe, just maybe this time will be different.  Maybe you were just making it seem like you were B.S’ing your way through our relationship.   Maybe you do really have an answer for all those little mysteries you introduced me too.  Maybe this time you will quit playing games with my heart.  Maybe it was my fault for reading into things you said a little too much.  Maybe, just when I thought our chance had past you’d gone and save the best for last.  Yes, that’s it!  Let’s let nature decide and try for one more season.  Come on Baby, one more time!  Maybe then you will give me all the answers I need to fully understand you and it will be true love after all.

How about we meet up on Tuesday?  Say 9pm?  Or if you’d prefer, we could do England?  Next Sunday at the same time?  Yes?  Great!  Oh, Lost.  How I’ve missed you so.  You’re just too good to be true.  I can’t take my eyes off of you.  Oh, I’m just so excited and I just can’t hide it. I know this may sound like a bit of a cliché, but I really have been lost without you.

Let’s get it on…

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